"SOS" came as both my call and response for help. I don't know why but I do know it is the International Morse code distress signal that's "used as a start-of-message mark for transmissions requesting help when loss of life or catastrophic loss of property is imminent." Dramatic perhaps, but have you met me?
The signal was first used by the German government radio in 1905 and in popular usage is often associated with the phrase "Save our Souls" or "Save our Ships."
The phrase that came to me was "In Search of Sacred." It was SOS that started my telegram from the Spirit world. What followed was instructions for living. My assignment is to make 1,111 God's Eyes and deploy them around San Francisco.
I do believe this is a lifeline. It's how Spirit works through us. It's like the story that Al Gore told the climate change-denying island of Tangier that believes it is storms and not seal level rise that's causing the island to disappear:
“Reminds me a little bit of a story from Tennessee,” Gore said, “about a guy who was trapped in a flood. He was sitting on the front porch and they came by in an SUV to rescue him, and he said, ‘Nope. The Lord will provide.’ And the water kept on rising. He went up to the second floor, and they came by the window in a boat, and they said, ‘Come on, we’re here to rescue you.’ And he said, ‘Nope. The Lord will provide.’ Then he went on up to the rooftop as the water kept rising, and they came over in a helicopter and dropped a rope ladder. He said, ‘Nope. The Lord will provide.’
“Well, he died in the water,” Gore said, “and went to Heaven and said, ‘God, I thought you were going to provide.’ And he said, ‘What do you mean? I sent you an SUV, a boat and a helicopter.’”
I'm not sure how many other lifelines I have missed or misunderstood or if this project is my SUV, boat, or helicopter, but I know I need to accept the help as I have been feeling as if I am drowning.
There are details that are still emerging, but a lot is clear. I'm not meant to make them all alone but rather gather groups. We can gather in community spaces and in nature. Each God's Eye will have the hashtag #inSOS and hidden messages.
I started making God's Eyes a few months ago and haven't been able to stop. I started picking up sticks while forest bathing and would sit and wrap the yarn. It became a transformative meditative practice. I set an intention, put reiki into each one, and repeat the mantra, "om gurave namaha," that my astrologist told me to repeat 108 times on Thursdays. The translation from Sanskrit is, "life is working through me."
God's Eyes are spiritual objects often found in Mexican and Mexican American communities. The Ojos de Dios is believed to see and understand things that are unknown to the physical eye. It's a ritual tool. A magical object believed to protect people when they are praying. During colonial times, God's Eyes were placed where people worked or walked along the trail.
The sacred part is what I am in search of — especially the sacred in San Francisco, a city that I have had a love/hate relationship with for 8 years. It feels like in order to survive in this city you have to be a sell out. The homeless people are called crazy but really I think they are the sane ones. Our teachers. The ones who won't conform to the system. But no one likes it when I say that, especially not my father. I've been trying to leave San Francisco for a long time but something won't let me. This city makes me so angry but perhaps that's the creative tension I need.
Instead of fighting or complaining about San Francisco, I'm going to try to be of service to the city. I see this as a community project that can bring people together, bridging cultural, financial, and generational gaps.